I officially fear Batting Cages.

Saturday at work, I'd had maybe an hour of sleep. I was just dragging myself around and such. Toward the end of my shift one of the machiens stops throwing pitches. Well they tell me to go back and so on. I'll falling asleep as I'm walking. I get back there and we have a trench that all the balls collect in, run to the ball conveyer and go up. There is NOTHING keeping us from fallign into the trench. That's just what I did. Stepped right out and fell in. My right side catched on the hooks of the conveyer and it drags me up. My skin is torn off by now as I fall back against the metal motor. Once I get up I'm cryign out and clutching my side. Most horrible thing I've felt ever. I just fall onto my side. Unable to get up or move. Lucky for me we were hosting a Party. Some kids saw me and their parents ran back after me. They called after my co-workers and got the Abulance to me. They comforted me and were just AWESOME People. Once the EMC Got there they get me off to the ER and they do some X-rays and such. The diagnos me with a Chest Wall Contusion. I also have a huge abrasion. If I don't do breathign exercises everyhour, Pneumonia can set in. So yea :/ That's pretty shitty .. and I hurt. Oui.

On a lighter note. John is goign to be home in Chicago in two weeks! What does that mean for me? Erm. Well I can at least call him when I want then! Once he get's back to C-Dale Jan. 4th I'll be heading that way ^__________________^ Already requested off work and everything. I can't wit >< xD
<3

Danny

I'm not sure what I've done to piss off the world but. It seems that no matter what I do, one person has to ruin my day everyday. To avail, I've tried ignoring it. But you can imagine that a screaming mother storming around the house slamming shit is pretty hard to ignore. I know I've complained a lot about her in the past. And I'll continue. I can't seem to understand her paradox of thinking. Let's size up the charts here.
ME
-Work 45 hours a week
-I'm a full time College Student
-I do -their- dishes everyday
-I do every ones Laundry
-I also come home from work and
school to take care of my little
Boy.

MoM
-Unemployed
-Never finished high school
-lays in bed
-lays in bed
-Bitches about watching him while i'M GONE

I'll give her credit for watching him for a few hours. Sure. But. I can guarantee that if her boyfriends kids are home she's not watching him. So every now and again she'll get a rare hair up her ass and go on a cleaning rampage.
In light of all this ... she has the nerve to scream at me this morning

"All of this shit is wearing me out" ...All of what? OH BOY You have to watch a one year old for a few hours. OMG THAT'S SO HARD. Jesus Christ how does she think I feel? Like I'M not overloaded. Do you hear me screaming at people for it? I think not.
That ends my rant for the day. I got some frustration out. Wew
Thanks if you bothered to read <3
Danny

NaiNai us feeling down. So I did a silly doodle ^_____^ I hope you feel better! <3

Welp. First quarter is over and I passed all my classes by the skin of my neck.

I want a WII ... really bad.

Life is good. WEWT for people asking me out on dates. This is exciting, being an item.

Heh

That is all

Your Welcome Nai

This announcment made for scientific purposes! YAR

I found out a few days ago that we are getting a SuperNova Cabinet at Two-Bit Bandit.

Hawt -murr-

I was like. "We're not going to just switch the Marquee and disc are we???" NO. We're going to have both, the DDRExtreme2 Cabinet AND the SuperNova Cabinet. Friggin awesome. So I dug up a little info that some of my lovely readers might find ... appealing.

The release contains 301 songs. Of those, 63 are completely new to DDR (at least three of which will be hidden and unlockable; more may be hidden in the final release), and a total of 57 songs are from home versions of DDR and are appearing on an arcade machine for the first time. Of the songs that are new to DDR, 19 are licensed. For more information on songs, please see the Dance Dance Revolution SuperNOVA song list.

I didn't feel like typing out all the songs ... So here you go.

http://www.answers.com/topic/dance-dance-revolution-supernova-song-list

Seems the rumored FallOutBoy on it has been nulled, but made worse by placing Janet Jackson upon it ...Ick.

If you want the entire low down. Bam. and Boom baby.
http://www.answers.com/topic/dance-dance-revolution-supernova

I'm exstatic. But this means more work for me and double the dumbasses trying to play. Meh.... Pretty machine -humps it-

I've got a 4.0 GPA. This exceeds my expectations.

School is going better then I could have expected. It's smooth and for me relitivly easy. I'm happy. I really am.

After school on thursday we went and got plates for my new car. Which Holly has dubbed the "Pimpin' Coulter Cruiser" Odd one she is. It's a Maroon 92 Buick LeSabre.
It runs well, has more room in it. And I think I can trust it to get me to and from school and work. Not to mention, After JANUARY it's going to be making a lot of trips.

John comes home I think he said on December 19th? Well he's staying in Chicago with his stuff and his parents until after Christmas. Then he'll be back in Carbondale around the beginning of January. This mean I have to wait until then to go see him ):. But no biggie. I've had it talked over with my mom and she knows that it's going to be happening frequently. She's willing to keep Gabe for me on the days I go to visit him. And I'm not going to sit around for a year before I go to see him again. Nope. Not this time. I'm not fucking this up. I plan on being there at least every other week. -shrugs- Bout time I got bold and went for what I wanted. Last time it cost a little more then my sanity. I hadn't spoken up about my feelings. And shit turned to hell when we both realized said feelings. So yea. Doin' it right this time ^_^ Gives me something to look forward to nae? Indeed.

Well. I think that's all for now folks. I'm sure I'll find more to rant about.

Tata!
<3 Kit

Well.

As some of you may or maynot know. I've started school. Yup. Getting my assosiates in Multimedia and my Bacjlors in Digital Entertainment and Game design. Classes are pretty spiffy. I go on Monday. Thursday, and Saturday mornings for the quarter. I'm really hoping for some evening classes next quarter. Getting up this early is driving me mad. Since I started my new job at Two-Bit Bandit I've had absolutly no time to myself. Except what I get on the computer. Not only that But I end up not having time for Gabe either. That kills me really.He's gettingso big. Much more Independent. His father makes me sick.
Other then that. Things with Lance are. Stale I suppose. I miss John a lot I really do. We never got to hang out before he left for Japan and now, He won't be back Till December. I know I'll have a vehicle by then and thank god for it. I haven't seen him in a year and even when I was in Florida It wasa bitch. Damn you and your .. having me attached. But you'll have that. I suppose It sounds like he's having a grand time but. From his JL it sounds like a big ass headache to me. I know that when he gets back. I'm going up there to viist him for a weekend or so. Maybe some of Christmas break. It's only like an hour and a half away so. He said he wants to learn to play DDR better on the machine. Well hello I'm a Arcade DDR goddess. So That will be interesting. -lesigh- All I can do is wait ...

Firstly. Life is crap. And so are the people in it. We make do no? Heh.

I'm ultimitly sick and tired of hearing BS about shit that was told to massive amounts of people on Furc. One person, had to go and spread their sob story to half of the dream we both RP in. Now all those people are spreading THEIR variations of the story and guess who the story whore is made out to be. Brav-frickin-o. Well, I suppose in the end I'll know who my friends are and I'll sit and laugh at those who were so unfortunate to fall into the dramatized funk of the infamous OOC room. Fuck you all.


There are select few who have the decency to totally shut themselves out from the story, And to those few who are my friends, Thanks.

Well since I just vented half of all this to Suki (Mike). My steam is gone -huffs-

I need out...
Someone ... save me :(

Hmmm very true! Yes I'mma touchy person -poke poke-

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		11
Quality Time:		7
Words of Affirmation:		6
Acts of Service:		4
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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WELL another ... glorious morning. It's 50 degrees outside and sunny. A bit too bright for my likings but you take what you can.

Well the last few days have been a whirlwind of. This is your fault and you did this and because of YOU this happened. Well in the current situation I can't seem to place my finger on a spot where it was me whom was to blame. But whatever. I'm just tired of people thinking they can scream at me and feel all big and bad because they're angry. I lay down for seldom few people. Very -select- few people. This person isn't one of them. -shrugs- So mote it be. I can't change what's been done because it dosne't involve me. Sheesh, why is it that just because your close to a person your automatically the blame for a relationship issue that you had nothing to do with??? Some people... Tch.

So I'm at my Dad's. Things seem brighter then before. My Dad and my step Mom are on perscitption drugs to calm them so it's all mellow like. I gotta get a job and a car. A job so I can save up and move out. A car be cause I need to go places and see people. What can I say I like my freedom. I should have a life too damn it! -yawns-

I'm so tired ... My siblings keep Gabe up ALL the damned time. I think after this ... I'm gonna go nap. Yep, eyes getting fuzzy ... -o- ~zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Love ya,
XODaniOX

Well alright. Go ahead and say it. "I told you so"

So most of you were right, and I'll give you that. Just don't go all "ZOMG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I TOLD YOU SO AHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH I WINZ!" When you find out v_v please.

As it stands. Shit with Deke hit the wall and I have a much better chance of getting on my feet at home around family who can help me. Please, dispte the fact that I loath the very existance of Gabe's Dad. He needs to see and be around him again. My mom stresses so much about me being here. I'm gonna go and stay with her until I get a job and get back on my feet. Then I'm gonna head out on ym own and get my own place. Given that Holly gets a job she's gonna move in with me too! JOY! That's gonna be awesome oooh yes. I suppose it took nearly 3 monthes of being away to realize that I really do miss Indiana. It's my home. It's where I belong. PLus I'm closer to people I want to be around . . .

I want a slurpee ... I vote today national Slurpee Day. I must get one ...I MUST! AHEM.
Alright ... There's my update biotches.

Forcast: Cloudy with a light drizzle. It's ok to feel like shit, You've got a good reason.

My, my my my. What an odd few days it has been. Firstly and formost. Renee, I love you babe. For all the stuff you've done for me and stuck out with me. Thanks. Secondly, I've got some shit to work through. Seems I've come to a stand -still in my relationship. He can't stand to be touched for long periods of time. I need that and to cuddle and what not. He dosen't want to change he likes how he is. But I need him, to hold me and show love for me and care for me and it's just not there, What do I do...

I've been feeling ill. Like sick to my stomach ill, a lot. It's starting to bug and paranoi me. It's making me think and ponder on certain subjects ...

I'm beat ... dead tired .. I mean I'm ready to pass out and DIE. I think me an my gay guy friend are going to curl up on the floor and cuddle. I need it and Deke won't get mad. It's Justin! Anywho ... I'm pooped ...

Much <333333333333 for you all

Peace out,
Dani

Today's entry is brought to you be the letter D (as in Dumb) And the number 2 (As in your acting like your two)

Todays forcast :Shitty, you'll feel a drastic decrease in your ego and the high will be maybe up to 20. Your feeling coldfor a good reason. And hell, let's throw in some rain the wash it all down.

So I've gone into depression. What else is new. You know, when am I NOT depressed anymore. I htought I;d gotten what I wanted when I moved to Florida. OH that's right. For those o you who don't know. I moved to Florida, KKTHNX. ANYWAYS. Life has a funny way of kicking you when your underground. And boy am I buried. I fucked up a lot of shit in the past 2 monthes and allup I've done it again. Deke is less then I expeccted. Ah the woes of Internet dating. And you know, for once it wasn't about looks. For fucking once, someone managed to royally FUCK me in the mother fucking ass. No, he can SAY things easy. But DOING said things ... Oh ho. Fuck me walking. He says he needs to cuddle, Bullshit. Needs to be clingy, Bullshit. Wants to fuck 24/7 BULL FUCKING SHIT. No nothing. What I got me here is a Grade A loner. Maybe perhaps it's -my- fault for not being a perfect skinny toothpick. Maybe it's because I'm not wonderfully beautiful ot gorgeous. Who knows, maybe it;s his inexperiance. GOD HELP ME if i fucking know. Then, there is my Mystery Man. I'll leave his name as that. Because he may or may not want to be mentioned by name. I ask myself. "Dani, how can you fall in love with a man who is obviously just as much in love with you and then let him fucking GO! Why do you put others happiness before your own ALWAYS! WHY YOU CUNT WHORE WHY!" Why? Because ... you know those people who are callouse and heartless. My heart is making up for them and it fucking sucks fucking ass. I give and I give and I give and I get like this. I can't handle it because my unhappiness is -overwhelming- then thoughts that I thought I'd longsince forget came flooding back. Thoughts of a WONDERFUL and joyouse stress free weekend with my mystery man. Why did you fucking let him go Dani. Your a fucking nit, a ninny!

But So mote it be as Mattuh would say. So mote it be. You made you bed now rest in it. Karma comes around. I can look back and watch my life, like one of those really crazy Drama shows on lifetime. I hate watching it but I can't help but watch, and it always makes you think. "Where did they fuck THAT up" or "If they'd just have listened." If I'd only listened. Your right, My Mystery Man. I should have stayed up north, I shouldn't have come to Florida, it was all a big fuck up from the beginning. I should have come for you I should have. But I didn't, because I'm too damned considerate. It hurts, this hurts worse then anything I've ever felt before, child birth, my 4 year relationship breakup. I'd rather be burning in the pits of hell then to feel this way. I love you so much more then you'll ever know, Please know that. I'm happy for your happiness, I puts a smile on my face.

At the same effect my insides are being ripped out and my body is crashign falling, falling,falling,falling to pieces. Why do I have to remember all the tiny details. Your smile, the movies, the games, the love making. Or, the sex, we'll call it sex, at the time we weren't considering it 'Love-making".

To my friends who have to deal with me through this, too all my dearest and best friends. Forgive me for being so rash and brutal and hateful and cranky and depressing, stick with me for as long as I can stand. Because without my crutch I will fall. I'm depending upon you, that's right. I'm pathetic, I need affection and attention to go on I adimit it. I'm a foul dirty filth and scum that needs others to survive. Deal or wheel. I love you guys.

To my best friend. I'm sorry, I hope you can forgive me, my heart, my actions. Don't hate me for who I am or what I do.Try to remember the Dani BEFORE the madness. I'll always love you.

What else is there to say but I'm a fucked up idot. And here is my blof of Emo bitchyness, Your exits to your right please keep you feet of the chairs and turn all cells phones off, and Please. Enjoy the Movie.

Forever the fool,

Danielle

PSS: Forgive the typo's, I was typing fast :)

Hmph. Lessie kiddos. I've been sick for the last week or so. Deke had t o threaten me to make me go see a doc. Of course ..he was right, I have strep and Asthma. But get this, my Aunt and Uncle -refuse- to smoke outside even though ..HELLO can't breath here! Them and their precious pot.::mutters::
If not for me ...I mean I havea three month old. He dosen't need that! ...For reals ...I'm just blah rightnow ...

Yea, my first entry ...I'm sicker then a dog. And I'm all bleh. Trying to figure out LJ and whatnot. And at the same time trying not to zonk. -rolls her eyes- This will be a short one ...I'm just ...drained for words.

Peace Love and Pepsi
Dani XOXO

R.I.P Eddie
R.I.P Captain Jack